Listening to my previous concert performance wif ah pa. Sure is memorable to play in esplanade. My leave for ah pa is almost up, said i wana quit but it's like something is holding me back mmm anyway this coming aug de disney concert i cant perform. DISNEY sia! It's during my final exam period so i cant even go for the practices. Well well, god will have a way for me haha.

Today was a really bad day in school. Had my pmg mcq test and as usual always flunk my mcq lol. Failed by 2 marks. Currently this sem i had 4 test already and only know 2 of my results which are both mcq, both also fail but first test after re test got 80 so lecturer going to take my 80 points de result. Sure is saddening lol, fail 2 test in a row. Doing mcq is just like buying TOTO sia, ti kam here n there but everything i fail for it de lol. ARHX!!! I hope at least can maintain my results!!! Something ought to be done and i guess maybe i do know wad to do just tht whether i can control myself or nt.

Initially i struggled being in class 02, feel tht this isnt the right class for me but as time goes by, i feel tht i'm actually wrong. This ought to be the class i shud be in. I hope as a class we can spurs on towards our goal. Study hard tgt, play tgt etc. But hw to motivate them? I wish to see them having hopes for themselves nt just thinking "nah, it's too tough". Something i actually realised is tht there're many talent in the class but none worked hard enough. I can see potential in them yea one day i hope they'll realise it.

Seems like i'm more or less done with my revision for tml test liao except for marketing. SIAN. Dont tell me i gotta memorise again man! I hope there's only a need to memorise for exam not class or common test haha.
Well went to the polyclinics like 11.30pm and was told to wait till 1.30pm due to the large no. of patients. WA i nid to sTUDY la. Lol. Cos it's really too ridiculous to wait for 2 hrs so i went to a private clinic instead. Guess wad the doctor say by right i shud present hima form for him to sign but the NP just ask me to get a letter from doctor w/o giving me any form. WTF!!! And i spent 20 bucks just for one stupid written ugly letter. EAT my money. I think if NP were to reject this EXPENSIVE letter of mine, i think i rather withdraw from the OIP. At least now i got excuse to withdraw den maybe i'l be able to perform for Virtuso. I went to this clinic the other time and measure my height which is 169 TODAY measure again, 168! -.- Keep shrinking and growing lol. This means really since sec 1 i stopped growing liao lol. Pri 6 163cm sec 1 168cm until nw. LOL. But of cos the weight wise, haha, got quite a diff nw haha

Went for Vjc strings ensemble concert ytd night. My first time going to the school. Hmm the spiral stairs were quite grand haha. Anyway concert was nice but it ended at 10pm, sure is tiring after i stayed in school from 9am all the way to 6pm plus to wait for the others to go tgt. Looking at the musicians there actually motivated me to practise harder haha.
Went wif ah teck to gym and went to strings straight away. Only a few turned up today and for those who didnt turn up, didnt even inform us lol. Dono wad to say. Lol. Well well today home alone hahaha. Gotta try to chiong project. TIRED! Next week 4 tests in a row wa weightage quite high also. So many things to study SIGH! Tht's life.

Today's really blazingly hot! Went library wif teck & yi haha. We managed to complete our e learning in a few hours time and went off to cwp to talk around. I was half done wif my principles of marketing project and i seriously need to take a few pictures of the nokia store but the ppl there disagreed wif it. SAD case haha. Though i'll be able to buy my shoe and rest at ease today but still, couldn't find a good shoe at a reasonable price. Lol. It sure is hard finding nice n good shoes nowadays. Well well i guess it's time i concentrate on my studies, this few days coming online is just to ..... well took up pretty much of my time haha. Dono why but it kept me going. Just cant stop but repeating it again n again. Well, FOCUS! FOCUS! FOCUS!

Tired tired tired!!! Projects, assignments, tutorials and common test! Man i totally cant concentrate and don feel like studying. Just wana live life to the fullest but the thought of going to uni holds me back. Haha. GPA!!! Haha. Sian. Hmm must slowly climb higher n higher haha. Well well cant believe it that although i'm nt in the com for strings but yet i spent most of my time there. Lesser time for studies. Wad can i do man? Strings attached ma. Haha. Just when i feel it's so boring, a group of interesting ppl joined the cello. Maybe that's the rise of the new prodigies and super rookie haha. Hope the com can change the date for virtuso to someday which i'll be able to perform. It's just once in a year. If i cant play this year, maybe i'll slack even more haha. Anyway wonder why, since this morning there' s been a bit of a distraction, cant concentrate in studying at all. SIAN! Just when i know wad i wana do, heng called me up and told me yi haven do the project yet lol. When i got back to wad i wana do, forgotten wad i wana do just nw liao haha. STRESSED!

Saw my brother's primary school frenz today in the shutter bus. Thought he purposely sneak in just to see girls but when i asked him den i know that he actually score well in ITE and proceed to NP. It wasn't really pleasant to see him as he kept making fun of me in the bus like wtf. Although he may be saying he's joking but still wonder why i still don feel that comfortable wif it. He joked saying "I didnt know u could make it to a poly, thought u're like ur bro, cannot study.". WTF. Firstly my bro scored higher than me as well as HIM and for o level, he's able to get in but he chose ITE because of the course. To think that such a guy like him would actually dare to look down on me when his results are like.... I guess that's the part of my reasons for wanting to get into a uni in regardless whether i'm in a JC or Poly especially.

Anyway, went to queensway wif chee yi after school and tried to find a pair of shoe and slipper that suits me. Everybody was saying queensway is selling the cheapest shoes there which i always disagree wif it until today when chee yi went there den he realised shoes there are really expensive haha. Sure is a tiring day. Hope to find my shoes earlier. And for wad cy told me on the way to IKEA, it really makes me ponder, when will it be my turn hahaha. JC "" "s better, maybe.

Looking forward to today cos my frenz and i have actually planned to meet today and go back to sec sch to collect our Dnt folio. Pushed away all other activites and dressed up properly. So after class msg him but no reply. Called him up and guess wad he's doing? Playing pool! Told me to wait for him at the bus interchange first so i went off first and luckily just purchased a new volume of Dear boy comics so as to kill time. After a while guess wad happened again? Msg me to tell me today weather too hot i cannot tahan i don wan to go liao. WTF!!!! Planned everything properly and informed teacher and this guy just ps me like nobody business. I guess sometimes ppl just don appreciate those who tried their best to organize something. I guess this shall be the last time i would ever REALLY believe in wad he says. One sorry and that's it???? Seems so easy to push the blame away man.

Wad long day it's today. Haha. Guess wad! It's our AGM today haha. I think around 200 to 300plus ppl came today, flooding the whole of LT 51C haha. Around 20ppl joined cello/bass. Just when i feel as if the essemble is falling, i see hope again. Just like a miracle haha.
This sparked off the birth of new star also haha. "7788" is back in action with our motto set! Strings attached!!! This 2 words alone are already very meaningful if u're thinking wad i'm thinking nw HAHAHA. If in the end there'll still be at least 10 cellists including horace n i and around 80 violinists, it would be wonderful. Hope there wont be ppl quitting this time round.

Tml e gaming design module sia. Although it's fun especially when i teamed up wif some gamers haha budden tml gotta draw/sketch out our own individual character sia. I cant draw haha. Wonder if there's marks for this sketches. Hmm well while on my way home today i was wondering. Ppl who're no longer studying are always saying the best moments of ur life is when u're still studying haha come to think of it i shouldnt just force myself to study that much but relax and slack more haha. No worries, no stress hahaha. Live life to the fullest man. Well being a little bit "naughty" at times can be really fun esp wif some of my frenz haha. If any1 gets wad i mean. Hahaa

Hmm shfited to my current house for like a month le. Sure misses the old one haha. Food n other stuffs there are selling at at cheaper price nt like my current area here. Then cos my place is kinda near the factories areas so got many erm u know?? haha Dam sian. Hmm there somethings which is nt wise to say here cos this's open to public haha. PLAY SAFE! Hmm started sch for a week plus le. Getting use to it soon but still kinda struggling with my modules as well as time to rest. Too shag liao haha.
Hmm for my cca, erm i passed the violin evaluation test last year so now taking up double bass. My goal's almost reaching soon hahaha. Erm lecturer rushing me to hand in my application form for overseas study trip le. Seems like i'm really in liao. Selected haha. Hope it'll be fun and tht i'll learn how to use the windows movie maker and create a video of my own.

It took me more than a month before i start to lost 2 to 3 kg. Just when i thought there was hope. My weight went back to the same kg again. Sigh. Hope come and go so fast man. Just when i wana give up, i saw something in the magazine i took from the gym today. "Kilofighter" by Expressions International. Was so dam happy. But when i called them up, they said it's in capsule form and cannot digest in water. MAN! Hope just come and go SO fast. SHUCKS!!! If only i'm able to take capsules. It's dam hard to slim down. Lol.

Just came back from CF FOC camp yesterday night. Skipped today n tml cos got something impt up. Before the camp i was already having a bad diarrhoea but during the camp nth happened but after i came back, it started just nw again. WA so dam sick man. But still i think it's cos of this i slimed down by 3kg liao. Haha somehow i should give thanks to the lord also haha. Suffered for around 4 days and slimed down by 3kg. Haha.
Well well, for the FOC, i should say this time round there're so many more ppl and almost all play basketball wif a few really skillful ones. It was indeed fun to play basketball wif them. Guess at least i turned up for a day for the camp so i wont regret haha.

It was so scary. Woke up early in the morning nt receiving my result via sms yet. Was so nervous as my hp was ring any sec from the time i woke up. After changing my clothes, my hp rang and there i received my results. Guess wad HAHA, it turns out to be above my expectations HAHA, dam happy now. For the first time, i felt so happy, my grades range from B to AD. Haha. Couldnt believe and guess wad, my GPA exceeded 3.5. Praise the lord!!! I can really see god's working in me. Couldnt have achieve such results w/o him. Haha.

Jie ying & alfred came to my house this morning today. One came to try out my grand piano b4 it will be move away tml and one came to use my com. Haha. Hmm jie ying sight reading nt bad arhx. Haha.

Around 11 plus i left home to meet my "brother", norman to go orchard haha, with JY tagged along. Usually 29 bucks for a shorts is kinda over my budget but wonder why, it's only after i was on my way home tht i realised tht shorts was nt tht chEAP! Lol. But still glad i finally found something i want. Next would be shirt, shoes and bag pack. Hope to get a trendy n good quality bag pack asap haha.

It's monday today. The concert i was looking forward had finally ended. This marks the end for some of the cellist career in PA also. It was a really great opportunity to perform in such high class places. Everything went off very well wif audiences clapping loudly non stop. Although there was a little bit of mistakes but still it was a great success. It seems tht this orchestra is able to make an impact of audiences' impression haha. Took a few pictures wif my fellow CB section ppl lol. It's cello/bass section not ### haha. I guess i wont forget the day i perform in esplanade. It was great!!!

Anyway this holiday i have been spending time wif all my old friends like sec and pri sch frenz haha. Have been going to my pri sch frenz house to have breakfast, lunch n even dinner today haha. It sures is nice, just like a family of mine. Haha. How wen xin haha

YAWN!! So tiring. Woke up +this morning and caught a flu but i still went for pa. Taken my med there n it made me feel so drowsy even until now haha. Tml's the concert le. Hope everything turns out well n hope got alot of ppl coming to support me haha. Have to reach PA 8am in the morning so it means i have to wake up at 5.45am tml. WA!!! Too early man. Been practising so hard for this concert, hope it turns out well, sitting in the front row also so must not make mistakes.

Somehow being in pa is slowly getting interesting hmm hesitating if i should quit or nt haha. Well well guess i will make the decision after my concert n anyway i should be going china to study for 2 months so i wouldnt be able to perform for aug de concert so still have quite some time to think bout it. Haha. Hope there'll be many ppl coming to the concert to support me. FOC at esplanade, when can u ever get such great deal man. Haha.

After concert must start plan A liao hAha slim down! Just hope to slim down haha. Dont need good figure. Just no excessive fATS!!! Haha. Pray tht god will grant me determination hAha..

Finally exams' over! Felt so great to once again play basketball wif my sec sch frenz haha. Well i guess currently wad i need to do is to worry bout my upcoming concert. Next WEEK nia!!! Wonder if i can catch up or not. Hmm. Asked ppl to go but if i cant make it in time for concert. Everything will goes to waste haha. Erm if u ask me wad plans i have after my concert hmm actually i'm nt really sure cos i'm nt tht firm wif my decisions too. Wad drivng lesson, wad finding a job, all these plans seem to be fading from my mind le haha. Hmm hope to spend my time wisely n i seriously feel like going back to CHR co n maybe, clean my hand off wif co liao. Haha. Wana rest! Now's western music time!!!

Woke up early in the morning to go back to school wif julian n grace to seek help from lecturer. Managed to solve my doubts for 2 of my modules. For the last one, business finance, managed to contact the lecturer. So lucky he's free at that moment. Just when he came, pastor called and i was talking to her, and this petty lecturer just walked off saying i wana talk don wana ask question. " ###### "!!!!! I admit i should have told the pastor i'm busy at that moment but i continued thinking that lecturer was friendly n patient since he always jokes wif us but he just went off like this. Thanks to him for spoiling my mood for the day. But never mind, guess i would have to seek help from my friends then. Ask another lecturer of mine wad will she do if she faces the same situation, she said she'll wait. So wtf!? He cant wait at all? Went off just like this! Maybe should just advise ppl not to come choose this course if they ever intend to choose. Hmm. Lol. But it'll make my course seems like a bad course although it's actually so GOOD lol. Haha.

Went toa payoh wif my parents today. On my way at the posb a les couple came in. Both were from the jc my sec sch is affliated to. Dono why but i thought the feelings have long faded but still i feel that awkward here n there. Sigh. Why sia! Thinking back if i were to appeal to aj or sa, i don think i will do equally well as nw. Hmm i think it's still this prob. Fame! Wad does it feel if i were to wear the shirt? Surely ppl will look highly of me haha. Top sec sch, top jc sigh i guess the more i think of this the more i hope i can get to uni wif my results. Hmm 2 more years to go. Still got plenty of chance left :) I hope my frenz out there who wishes to go to uni also, dun give up. Even if any1 of u didnt score tht well for a sem or 2, there's still chance, as long as u have faith in urself. There's definitely a place in uni for u & i :)